In high school, a lot of people experience their first love, I am included in this. It is unlike anything one has ever felt, as they are navigating this whole new realm of life. Being young comes with making many mistakes and these mistakes can be made due to being blinded by love.
I was one who had been afraid of change. This influenced me to stick with bad habits and people that I shouldn’t have. I would constitute my first love in this category and my biggest mistake was staying with someone who was really not good for me. I knew things were always pretty bad. We had our ups but the overwhelming bad was obvious and I tried to remain oblivious to this in fear of my life being different. I let this lead to a three year relationship filled with cheating and breakups and just hurting. I made the mistake of accepting things that should have not been accepted and of allowing myself to be walked over. I risked my own happiness for someone else’s day in and day out.
I try to view this time in my life not as a mistake but as a learning experience. I wouldn’t go back and not have this relationship but I would go back and stand up for myself and if that led to the end of it then I would accept it. I met someone by luck who treats me how I always wanted to be treated and I think that I appreciate and value my current boyfriend even more after going through what I went through. I learned to only accept what I deserve and to take better care of myself. I am so happy now.
